i always have so much to say, so many ideas to express and then i come online to share them with everyone and they disappear. I find my self at a loss for words. But then finally i will post a message and get reemed out for it. Why is it that people seem so incapable of having a discussion on the internet?
I had the most amazing discussion with my friend Gabby today. We talked about society and how we wish things were, so i wanted to come express my opinion on here. But if i do who's going to get mad at me next? I know I'm not supposed to worry about what other people think, but it hurts. It hurts every time some tells me I'm wrong, or stupid, or i don't know what I'm talking about. It hurts every time some is too closed minded to listen what I'm saying or atleast discuss instead of dismissing. The sharing of our idea, our curiousity, our thinking forward and planning for the future are what makes humans unique, but we're loosing it.
that's it for now

in fact i know she knws everyone. ok, not everyone, that's impossible, but close enough! i kinda miss walking down the street with her, saying hi to almost half the people we passed. Toronto is a big ass city to know that many people! any-hoo, missing the city, missing actually being able to go to TIG HQ, missin alot of ish... too bad so sad. I'll be bacl soon! well, 2 years:P

where the hell does it display my friends? not that it matters in all honestly cuz i have like 3, but i just want to know these things!

ok, so i can't do anything. All i need to do right now is find some money and then i have a gazillion people willng to help me. But i don't know how to get money! I'm not associated with any organizations that i can use as a way to get grant money, and i don't know how to write proposals. ARGH! i feel so useless. basically i don't kno what i'm doing and i can't be bothered to find out all this stuff on my own. i've got enough to worry about with school. I'm trying to grad in a year and half when it's supposed to take two. I'm doing grade 11 over again:P They kick people out of school once they turn 19 now, so I have to grad by next december. And I'm slower then most people too! I'm going crazy. I just want this thing to work out, but i guess i'm not willing to put the work in. Or really I am and just am unable to right now. Once I get the money everything will be smooth sailing, i just know it. Well, maybe a lil bumpy, but easier then right now.