have you ever felt like everyone around you is involved in something and realized you do nothing?
I feel like that a lot. I think i'm a procrastinator. It's more of i just feel discouraged. A feeling of having few resources and little inspiration. Living in a small community on top of a mountain gives me the perfect excuse to be a procrastinator. Well, at least to myself. I always thought of myself as more of an activist. but i guess not.
I just don't like doing anything alone. I perfer to work in a group or with a friend. But if i really wanted to make a difference would that really matter? ARGH! So, I'm on a search for local orginizations to be involved in and actually make a difference. Ther is a Red Cross club at my school. I went to one meeting at the beginning of the year. I'm thinking of perhaps starting a Key Club next year. I'm already a member, but htat was when i was inToronto.. hmm. so much to do it's over whelming, perhaps that is what my problem is?

Whenever people form TIG talk to me they have somuch to say, so much to do. I've stopped listening. INfact i usually just get irritated now. I feel bad But I'm mad at me self and don't kow what to do abut it.

I think i seem to wallow in self pitty in all my updates. But i'm really a much more positive person! heh... I just get very over whelmed very easily. and a more then a little grumbley.
I hope that some one out there is from Vancoucer Island BC and would like to volunteer and do intresting helpful things with me! it would be nice.
peace love unity